I am so conflicted. I absolutely loved getting out of the house and going to the beach and going to the festival, but it made me realize how truly alone I am when all I want is someone special to share that with. That would have been the most perfect date ever. 

All I kept thinking about at the beach was how attractive that one girl was, or how that other boy kept looking at me. I would have just loved to be approached and swooped off my feet. Not in front of my step brother though because omg no awkward. At least it was at Ponte Vedra and now Jax Beach. And I think my silent prayer to not go to Jax Beach was answered by nowhere to park. So yeah, that worked out nicely. 

It’s just time I get swept off my feet by a really really attractive, well off guy that can take care of me. That’s all I really want right now. Someone who can take me out and drive us places and want to be with me and ACTUALLY BE ABLE TO. 

It’d be great. 

Everything has changed. Two/Three weeks ago I was writing that Tragedy that is still in my drafts on this blog, and now I have forgotten about ‘if things get bad’ and ‘what my grades will be’ and all of that. I love that. And that needs to happen more often.

that letter could not have come at a worst time 

honestly omfg 

it was nice though, I thought. Despite what they said